Yesterday I felt Alive!
It was an amazing feeling all but forgotten in the past two months. Now, I felt many things during this brief period of recovery: mostly grateful…to be among the living. I went on with my daily life. But the ever present spectre of unease clung to my neck like an exotic snake, hissing into my ear like Kaa from Jungle Book.
“Sure, you are getting stronger and feeling better…but you felt good before…how can you trust it wont happen again?”
As I mentioned in my last post on the surgery, I made a decision to use this episode as a wake up call and not an excuse to shut down. And the days come one after the other…some are good and some are bad. Since the surgery, I have had pneumonia, a bacterial infection and pleurisy (common after bypass surgery). These were taken care of with antibiotics, but shook my confidence a little.
So, I have been living, working, walking, seeing friends….just living.
And without warning…
Yesterday dawned beautiful and bright! I set out for my morning walk. The sun warmed my skin while a gentle breeze played around my neck. Dogs barked, children played and Wisteria bloomed a pale periwinkle in the yards I passed.
I felt alive! Kaa was losing his grip as the breeze untangled his hold. Joy crept into my heart edging out unease and concern. It was wonderful.
I share this for those who have gone through similar experiences with their health. You will have good and bad days. You will have days where every twinge brings you anxiety and you will have days where Joy creeps in to remind you what it means to be alive.
Joy…Hope…Meaning.. they are still there. Look for them and they will find you.
Water for Camels 
May God keep HI Blessings and light on you, everyday. Thank you i know the feeling.
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Thank you
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How amazing the lessons we learn when life deals us a terrible blow and reminds us never to take anything for granted! It’s through our losses that we are able to experience the true joy of being. Blessings ❤
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Very true words!
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May you continue to get stronger!
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Thank you. I just want to encourage others that might be going through the same thing that it is normal
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Keep on recovering!
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Thank you for your well wishes
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Great pic!
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I love to associate an image to the verses!
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Thank you
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You are a winner !! Congrats! 🙂
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Reminds me of C.S. Lewis “Surprised by Joy.” So glad for your glimpse of the abundant life He promises.
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Absolutely! Great analogy!
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Thanks.
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glad you’re recovering your joy even if the zest takes a bit longer … keep healing and eventually the waves level out ❤
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Thank you Kate!!
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welcome Angela 🙂
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Oh, how I can relate to you and your recovery. Some days you feel great, only to have to deal with paying for doing what you did for feeling better. Up and Down, that seems to be the only constant with surgical recovery. Stay the course and get back to where you want to be.
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It’s good to be part of a tribe! Normalizes and encourages us. Thanks for your understanding
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May God will keep you
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Thank you
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Welcome!💞
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